"Hurt" by: Johnny Cash.

There are somethings that can only be expressed in a song such as this.

I have went through 2 IPODS, 1 mp3 player, several CD players and a radio.


I NEED HELP! i need someone to help me choose my next music device...

I have Zune in mind. Does anyone have any opinions on that?

Or is there something way better???

HELP PLEASE!!

If at all possible,

i hate EVERYONE.

Even all of you little special people!(: (i mean the people who i love dearly)

But at the same time, I love you!

How time flies.

Tomorrow is the 4th of July, a celebration that every citzen of the USA awaits. As a child, i always loved the sparkling colors. My baby cousin told me that she loved the 'sparklies' which i took that she meant 'sparklers.' She's so adorable, and she's only five years old.

I have two summer reports, how i wish the English language(even though it is my native language) was more simple. Because these reports require skill in literature. Even though i have been told that i have skill in that area, i am not too confident.

My wonderful friend, and editor of my stories was telling that i need to kick things in gear because my latest story has been on  hold for some time now. I told her sorry, but that is not on the top of my to-do list. She got kind of discouraged, but nonetheless, she still cheers me on. THANK YOU~!(:

My family is always going on about the future, but what about right now? In this exact moment in time? I suppose that it is meaningless. Who knows?

I will never understand others minds. It is a horrible move to try so.

I wish I could explain things better. The time has come, i need to get my rear end in gear. I no longer have the freedom to enjoy my summer. That time has passed me by, in only a matter of 2 weeks.  I have to work on what matters most.

And that most certainly is not enjoyment.

On a happier note, the fourth of july(Independence Day), is coming very soon. I love that day, one of my favorite celebrations. I have always been one to sit outside and enjoy the wonderful colors. Congrats to our fathers of our nation, at least to the father of the United States of America.

My friend is now pushing me to finish a short fanfiction of mine, but i just do not have the time. I am doing this post against what i should be doing, sadly. I wish i had more free time. But my only companions lately are my IPod and my wonderful OpenOffice. I find that really sad, truly. My own sister has pity for me, but not as much as i pity myself. xD

I hope i finish my latest fanfiction soon, because i have a few ideas in mind. But that has to wait.

Hope you all enjoy your summer!(:

Let's see... since i can't have my perfect summer vacation, i suppose it would be where i could relax without any worries or any stress at all. Just relaxing with friends and family and enjoying myself.

And to think my summer was going to be boring.

Next week, on friday, my family and I will be going on a road trip. I love traveling. I have no objection against spending time with my family. Because, quite frankly, todays technology is a great way of blocking them out respectfully.

The only one of the family who is against going on the road trip, because he will be away from his games and because he has to be with us in a vehicle for an amount of time, is my older brother. I love him dearly, like any little sister should, but he is a hermit. He's so energetic, but all he does is sit in front of the TV with his game systems!

But, besides that point, my sister and I are planning on sightseeing and tanning. The hot weather is a wonderful way of relaxing. Though, personally, I would like to see the ocean. I'm a huge fan of photography and I plan on taking MANY photos.

My sister, oh how she is so funny, will probably gawk over the guys. She has a boyfriend, but that doesn't seem to stop her. But i can't be one-sided. I will be looking, also. XD

I plan on looking for some inspiration on my trip, though throughout the trip, i will have to write on paper. My laptop will NOT get signal while traveling. That seems to be too much to ask. Dx but i'm fine with it.

I plan on sleeping. ALOT. I might actually have fun on this trip, my hometown is starting to bore me. My life seems to be boring.

BUT! Who Cares!!! 

Lately, my inspiration has gone out the window. I always thought that my inspiration was from Lady Luck. But lately, she seems to not enjoy my company. My family has caught me in front of my computer staring at a blank document. It is very frustrating. I love the feeling of having a story play out in my mind.

My friend loves to write poetry. So i asked if i could use some of her wonderful poems for inspiration. She was kind enough to say yes. I tried reading through many of my favorites and i came up with none. I was annoyed with myself. I wanted to use her beautiful words and make them into a story that she would enjoy. I started drawing and everytime i drew, red would go into the picture, symbolizing anger.

Soon, i tore those pictures and went back to the blank document. Nothing was coming to my mind. I wanted to have a sentimental story on my hands, a multi-chapter story, but that seems to be out of my reach. One of these days, i hope to find someone(or something) that is willing to work with a very frustrating girl.

I am at my wits end. I will struggle to write as much as i can. But, hopefully, that is not pushing things.

Hopefully, in the near future, i will find something that will inspire me.

High heels kill.




Oh, and finally! SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER! -turns music up- xD

i have learned my lesson.

whenever you are in a problem, never go to your sister(in my case, at least.)

my sister did not help me in the slightest. I think she needs to get her head out of that mirror that she stares in so much. I love my sister just like anyone else would, but she just broke up with her amazing boyfriend for a guy who has cheated on her NUMEROUS times. "just to see if it would work out," were her words.

My sister is alot like me. Except that she does not enjoy using her brain, writing for fun, or trying to understand that a guy has more then a body. She is what some people would call a 'fan girl' of sorts. No, she is not into manga or anime. She, unlike myself, loves to have random mood swings. She is my best friend til the end of the world, but sometimes, i would like to look inside of her skull and check if her brain is still there.

I was in tight spot, and she "tried" to help me by mentioning that she broke up with her fantastic boyfriend because he 'was not making me happy anymore' once again, those were her words. I never, under any circumstance, will understand why a girl will throw away her boyfriend like that. And for quite some time, she was depressed without said recently ex boyfriend. Tell me how that makes sense?

I am no longer going to try to understand how my wonderful older sister thinks. Because, to be quite honest, it is pointless.

Why trouble things? I know the situation, why should i try to tell her that her perfect world is confusing? That would be the end of me. Because, deep down, i believe my sister would never let me hear the end of that.

to be quite frank, i have. i did manage to get into the relationship successfully, but then about a month after we started dating, i found out he had cheated on me, with many girls. one of which, was younger then me, but quite a range. i told him that i did not appreciate that and that we are done. he said fine and then went his own way.(from what i heard, he got into quite alot of trouble) and then i re-started my life. it has gone well, thus far.

Pros: i get to have more credits, it's easier, not too demanding, and is fast paced(on most days)

Cons: I have to earn the right to the credits, i have to help kids with their work without giving them easier ways to figure it out, they want to ask many many question repeatedly, and i get a headache almost instantly.

Helping kids with math work is easy, yet hectic.

I hope that this school year ends quickly so i can pass the job to someone who is more patient.

In the past two days, i have writen two stories. My brain is back to being fried. Hopefully, more inspiration will come. Thankfully, kind people fixed my horrible mistakes on uploading. YOU ALL ARE VERY KIND!! :D

The second post, "What Are You Doing, Naruto?" did not turn out quite like i hoped. But... not everything does. I just hope that people enjoy it, if not, i'm deeply sorry.

Sasunaru is most definitely one couple that sparks inspiration the most, the second would have to be Riku x Sora. Yaoi just seems to stick more.

Hopefully, i can get some straight couples in. Such as Tamaki x Haruhi. I love quite a few of straight couples, but since no inspiration has come(most likely from school... i am so glad summer vacation is right around the corner), then i must stick to what comes to me.

 I hope everyone enjoys the fanfics. =D

My Great-Grandfather.

i've been trying to write more for a while now, and it has come to naught. I was hoping that someone, anyone, could give me an idea of what to write. I usually write yaoi. Such as Sasunaru, &  Riku x Sora. Thought, recently, I've been trying to write a Kaichou wa Maid-sama! story.

I was hoping that someone could help, if so, thank you very much! :D

I am speechless

I just finished watching the "Valkyrie."

I love it, yet i don't.

How can so much effort go to none?

I certainly am speechless. That true story has made me rethink everything that I thought of the Holocaust/WW2.

Another thing, "The Boy In The Striped Pajamas" is movie worth watching, it is also about WW2.

my friend was telling me that there are people in this world that people like us(us, being the weird, innocents xD) shouldn't know.

Well, i was just wondering, but does people with weird jokes count?

I seriously thought that. But then my other friend(who is a guy) said that maybe it would be best if we just stayed close to our guy friends because apparently, we are unable of 'holding our own.'

My friend who told me to stay away from the people turned red and i was just grinning so much it reached my ears.

We never continued the conversation, most likely being my friend thought it was 'too wrong.'

WHATEVER! i love talking about things like that. Seeing people's reactions are one of the funniest things.

Dont'cha think?

This picture makes me think that even if you're drowning, someone is always there with you.

It's a sweet thought, isn't it?

www.youtube.com/watch

Great song.

Was hoping that it would inspire something

I was wrong, sadly.

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!